Thoughts from the Summer

I went into this past Summer with the intention of joy, connection and love - both in business and life. Bringing back the joy from my youth when I wasn’t afraid to be acting a fool or had the care of what others thought of me (shedding this is a work in progress), connection to people rather than the internet/socials; presence has been key here… and whole lesson in its own. The beauty it brought, the love it brought - in myself (big) and in my compassion for others (which was already pretty strong) but sort of in a new way.

Some learning and reflection from my journal:

With every new breath - she created a new matrix for herself - Witchy Ways (WW)

Being in stillness - this comes back to the presence piece, but more specifically with yourself. This is a hard one, something that I have been working on.

I have found the most power in this through my breath, it has been what is supporting me through the coming further into my own (amongst other amazing things and factors). One of the things that I hear the most… “I can’t meditate/ be still because I can’t keep my mind quiet” and thats fair (there is always SO MUCH going on in the world and life) but it doesn’t always need to be about BEING quiet, it can be about acknowledging the thoughts and letting them take up space so that maybe you can explore, reflect and reframe the negative ones. Also, when you are focused on your breath.. it is a little easier #fromexperience

Honouring nature and our earth, no longer afraid to share that I am indeed one of those women who recognizes the connection we have and the beauty surrounding us (especially being lucky to live on some property, as I am).

Nourishment has been a word/ seed planted; learning to consume (food, drinks, who we surround ourselves with). Giving myself the grace when I don’t honour it and recognizing that it is all a process. I am coming into the fall season with this being one of my words. My focuses’.

The abundance mindset — what we believe and surround ourselves, we attract.

God, this one has been hard. Personally, the lack mindset was strong - financially, things are hard right now but I didn’t want to live constantly being stressed by this, so I have been working on reframing my mindset. Attending masterclasses, taking the radical action to work on/ through this has been amazing. We have been experiencing abundance in SO many ways (the zucchini, the new connections/ friendships etc.) and while financially, things are still hard, I am not as focused on this - and the abundance mindset is more than that. We really are what we attract.

A summer of hard boundaries .. really hard boundaries. I am sure there will be a whole other post about losing friendships when the timing is right. But in short, as individuals we deserve the world and if there are people in our lives that are not contributing to that mindset, then… we need to do what is right for us.

Click here for a post that showed up right after said boundaries were set … affirming that I was doing and did the right thing for me.

The grief of friendships that are no longer … I hope you, too, have somebody that can support and bring out those feelings. It can be hard on your own.

Love (the act and saying it regularly) was never normalized for me growing up, and it is so fucking important. Connection is SO fucking important, but we live in a world that is trying to disconnect us… so many families naturally follow suit.

I began my breathwork training through the summer and am starting to implement it in to my practices (both as a practitioner/ facilitator and my own …which has been happening for a bit now). If you are a part of my community, throughout the fall season I am offering breathwork classes for free. You can watch my introduction class here, to learn about my vision and what I am planning for us; we are working with a style that first activates your body and then helps you rest. Getting us out of survival mode.

The growth we are experiencing as a family - the hardships that come along with this.

My complete love for Jack (iykyn) - he deserves the world.

We can do whatever the fuck we want and now is the time to do it… stop getting in your our way and the mindset of “I will, when…”

A new layer coming up just when you think that you’ve worked through it; a few things have resurfaced throughout the summer that I had thought I had worked through already, turns out, it ran a little deeper and it was time for me expel it again.

Things coming up again about living in a patriarchal society that doesn’t serve us — flow. When we are able to live in accordance to the seasons, our cycles and the moon (doesn’t need to be all of them), we notice and recognize changes and can feel more ease. It is not perfect by any means, I still work in a patriarchal society too.

Any type of growth is small steps … when we are expecting the immediate gratification (like the world teaches us to), we give up when we don’t see the results. Slow and steady, wins the race babe.

Claiming truth through our pleasure .. sexually and what my soul calls for. Pleasure is a word I am learning to become more comfortable with (again, through masterclasses and learning); essentially doing what feels good for me.

Woman is earth.. is creation.

We are taught to respond/ react from our head … the masculine energy… feminine is to feel it in your body; a practice that I didn’t fully understand at first.. until I did. A practice.

Restriction on mindless tv and food… there is nothing wrong with binging some Netflix, it is when you do it all the time that you are becoming numb and distracted. The food, this one is huge too and I am so happy to share that there is totally progress happening in my body/ mind. I got McDonalds the other day and it wasn’t even good.. not at all the grease/ yummy stuff that I once craved. My body now wants things that are going to nourish me.

Nourishment while waiting … this card came up a bit for me throughout the Summer. A card from the Animal Apothecary deck; the reminder to not rush (because I get back in to that sometimes too) and to nourish myself while “waiting” for my dreams to continue to transpire.

The Witch Wound … the narrative that witches are bad/ evil etc. I want to read more into this, but it is definitely something I have been paying attention to for a while… dating way back to when women who believed in the power of our earth were burned at the stake … the start of women losing their power to a patriarchal society. Prior, women were seen as the providers in all senses … we were in community, both in and outside of our homes.

Somewhere in my lineage, there was a woman/ women who knew their power- I am bringing her back.

Communication with the elements - earth, water, fire, air. All teaching us something.

The mother wound - I have a great mom, one who broke and pushed through societal expectations in her own way, but who still grew up in a society who taught her she wasn’t worthy, and this is passed down, until somebody is able to recognize and reframe - a belief that I am changing and taking complete charge of and helping others do the same - check out Bergamot Queen for the support.

I was recently in a breathwork class and she was speaking about transformation and two ways that it can/ does occur. There is the analogy of the butterfly and how she comes to be; cocooning from the caterpillar (rest, going really inwards) and blooming into something brand new - this is what I would say I experienced a couple years back through the anger and isolation. &then we have the Snake, the not quite as big transformation, but the shedding of the skin into a deeper version of what/ who we already are.

I am leaving behind some things this season … expectations of other people; my need to know the outcome; the lazy mindset; those who aren’t taking action over their lives; old paradigms of what sex is (hypersensualized); Zack (not physically lol) and moving forward and speaking out my intentions … putting them out into the world… the Christmas trees; the shelves; being in deep community; time freedom; love in an extra sort of way.

You are abundant, baby.

Tools for grief:

Having a support system is important.

Releasing through the tears (there is no shame in these like society teaches us there is), through moving the energies in our bodies.

Easy Air or Breathe (same product, different names in US and Canada) rolled over your lungs; this is where our grief and sadness is stored. A tool for those who are “feeling suffocated by their sadness”.

Acceptance. Sometimes easier said than done, but when we are able to invite acceptance into the circumstance, it can become a bit easier. If you’re going the psychology route, this is said to be the last stage of grief; the ones before it being: Depression, Anger, Bargaining, Denial…

Here is a good article I read on grief.