Thoughts from the Winter, 23/24

Pt.1: We’re almost at the end of January now, and while things are finally slowing …. the first bit of this season has been CRAZY. Between the holidays and opening my own space (still in awe of this) and planning for workshops, I haven’t … had the opportunity to really pause, let alone honour my own seasons. Something that I know keeps me in check. Grateful to be at a place now where the rush of it all can slow down; the foundations are in place; now we trust and go with the flow.

My certification is one class and a reflection away from being complete. I didn’t finish it for when I intended, but I am giving myself the grace with this and the freaking high fives for coming as far as I have in these past six months. Like, you think you’re at a place where you're good and feeling pretty healed, and then you like catapult into the next level - it’s the only way that I can truly explain it. Feel it.

The connection to our bodies, to it all - is the most magic.

Here are some other things that have come up this season:

I am in a season of needing to honour my masculine energies … the doing (while still honouring my body, duh) of things. The planning and organizing and the figuring things out as I go; a new level of busy, but in a magical way. Slowly, with intention and honouring my vision and priorities. Taking action. Care more about the end goal, as my card from Animal Apothecary reminded me.

You have nothing to prove- you just are.

Another reminder from Animal Apothecary, our consciousness dictates what version of ourselves we choose to be. Assume the identity and emotion of the self that you want to be.

Leaving behind: judgement of self/ others, the scroll (maximum limit set/ day), those that dont serve my higher purpose, fear of the future.

Define the divine in your own word (a reflection from class): The divine/ my divine is a woman who is no longer actively surrounding herself in negative energy; who consciously chooses from a place of love and compassion, who is allowed in her space. Who lives cyclically (flow); a state of receiving, out of the shame and blame game. Being over doing. Leading her own way. A forever learner- wise.

Reflection for yourself: What do I desire, right now?

You’re the only one standing in your way, babe.

Pt.2:

Your reminder to start doing and only saying YES to the things that nourish your soul; surrounding yourself with the people who are talking about what they are doing opposed to what others (not even in the room) are doing.

A note that anything you are judging or talking about, deserves some reflection. Because often, it is something that you don’t have or don’t know how to get.

The fear of changing our trajectory is VERY real. Changing or evolving into somebody we never knew could exist, fear of failure and/ or fear of losing what you already have - both very possible outcomes. I have come to the point where I can believe that anything that doesn’t work out, better is meant to be. Feel the loss and come out on the other side of it.

Competing, in Latin means to conspire together to make each other better.
Interesting. I’ll leave this one open to interpretation.

A change in mindset that has helped a lot in my own growth and in my own home; beginning to see more of what is beautiful opposed to what is broken, the invitation to return to wholeness. I have already witnessed how this is changing up everything in the most beautiful ways.

Culture. Not something that I was every exposed to, but something I am realizing has tremendous effects on how we move about life, where our hurts stem from and literally all the things. I have been learning more (or remembering as I have come to refer to it as) about my Irish roots, paying attention to the stories and the abundance of those that came before me (way before we settled). Something that I need to figure out how to learn more about.

Be the energy. Be the love.

I’ve been working a ton on my heart and roots these days, the safety and the trust. Lots of underactive energies going on there because of experiences and all the things (in my lifetime and before); its been magical to feel and breathe through it in my body, feel the cracks start to open and witness what comes through.

I have been working on the money wounds for what seems like forever, a forever evolving layer. The connection to our heart space, again, the opening up and being what and who we are meant to be.

Abundance, all over, baby.

F R E E falling to freedom.

More grounding exercises needed, being out more in nature now that our earth is starting to liven up, the beauty. Getting out to my little space with my spiral, the place to meditate and to be.

Something is coming out in me in regards to youth care, I need to push myself here, jump out of the comfort zones like I have in my real life. It’s a whole other ball game when it is your professional life - that fear, I tell yuh.

Things come to you when you are in the flow of life (being present), those ideas and thoughts that come to your brain, they are worth something. It is time that you start taking a listen.

Trust in ourselves.

Putting people on our paths that judgemental of the work that I am here to do- strengthens our trust muscle, and maybe, just maybe, plants a seed for them. This reminder came to me after somebody accidentally signed up for the wrong workshop (they thought they were going to yoga, but really); they stayed, but I could totally feel the judgement. Something that thankfully (because of the work I have done), I was able to move through, and even work into some of the practice (note the comment that I made about judgement earlier).

I don’t know what is coming, but it is better than I could have ever imagine, I can feel it.

Staying committed to the vision, we are freaking worth it.