Resistance

There is something that can happen when you get into a deep breathwork session called Tetany. Some call it lobster claws in the breathwork world, but it is essentially when your whole body tenses up and you cannot move (until your breathe it out, slow and with control or allow it to pass on its own). Caused, scientifically when the carbox dioxide coming into our bodies with each breath is not equivalent to the carbon dioxide coming out.

Spiritually, I have read and through experience with clients that it can be our bodies way of resisting whatever is we are personally going through at the moment.

A resistance to change, which we all resist in some way or another - either logically we know that we hate change, or on a phyical level, our bodies (nervous system) can hold us back in the state that it knows; whatever your experience or truth may be, what it knows, is what is considered safe.

I recently experienced Tetany personally, I’ve known it logically and have experiened it with clients but never felt it myself … until recently when I was rocked and taken through immense discomfort. Let me share a little …

I went to a Full Moon Breathwork ceremony recently with Suse (check her website here) where going in, before I even arrived to the barn at Forager’s Farm, I knew the night was going to bring me something big. I did however, not expect the whole lobster claw experience lol. I was in my vibe, listening to her guidance and moving along with my breath when I felt it begin; internally, I started to resist and started doing what I know would stop it right in its tracks; however I was quickly reminded by that internal guide of mine that in order to grow, we need to face the discomfort …and so I kept breathing in the original pattern and allowed it to move through me as I got tighter and tighter and tighter. I don’t know the length of time I was there in that discomfort for, but it felt never ending as my entire body vibrated and shook up energy and resistance that I know has been holding me back on an internal, nervous system level for too long (but also the perfect amount of time). And as I knew it would, my body slowly began to release the tension it has been storing up in there for years, tension I wasn’t fully aware of, until I began to integrate and reflect through the coming days as I was away completely immersed in nature with my fam and some of our best friends.

For me, the resistance lied in trusting myself.

Something that I know is so relatable in a world that has us relying on everything but ourselves; all of the outside sources (which are so great and hold such beautiful value) to “heal or cure” ourselves when all of the answers truly lie within, and we’re not actually broken.

The space where deep trust in myself was felt and embodied.

I’ve been taking chances and evolving for years now, so the idea that I didn’t fully trust myself felt weird, but as I reflected throughout the week, and the many (many) confirmations through card pulls, looking out to the stars and fully being present in nature, I realized that I was holding onto places and ideas for security and (internally) believing that I wouldn’t be able to support myself as I set out further on this entrepeneurship journey.

My body, my internal sense of safety continued to give me messages that I need to start looking for something part time as I pursued this journey, but as I’ve grown my own capacity, I have learned to trust what my body is telling me and my body continues to tell me that, that noise is my ego and my fear speaking … so we keep trekking and trusting.

& I know that, that breathwork sessions with Suse that I experienced (within the energy of the full moon I might add) is exactly what my body was needing for me to truly move through this energy that was holding on to my fears.

+its a major reason that I commit to sharing this work too, recognizing the power that the mind/body connection holds over transforming us into our greatest mental wealth.

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