Winter Season, 2025
What a fucking whirlwind.
The season we decided to get married and planned it all for the very first day of Spring- a reflection that will be coming soon.
Be this the season where we truly learn to take care of our body- realizing eventually that we have been taking the small steps for a while now, allowing and showing compassion for falling back and choosing to honour a way to continue.
Lots of solidification on what I am looking for, how and what I can offer to the community.
Trust your wisdom and the memories that are returning, no matter how heart-wrenching, babe we are coming out further on the other side.
Book(s) of the season (and beyond because I take forever):
Money, a love story - Kate Northrup
Fuck like a goddess- Alexandra Roxo
Coming into my own sacred sexuality, honouring and sharing in a manner that seeks pleasure (not only in the bedroom, but in life too).
Love is the biggest deal there is.
Your soul doesn’t obsess over yourself like your mind does.
So many reflections throughout the Christmas season - love, kindness and grief for what my family once was.
The relationships that have changed in response to changing and no longer being quiet and still and somebody moving down a deep road to mental health.
One of the moments that I decided to no longer allow my difference of opinions to seperate us, to start coming around again, to lead with love and empowerment and still use my voice when it is needed.
and wishing that maybe someday, they’ll get curious about my beliefs and we can have open converstaions and get to know a little more about the family that I am creating.
Got in deep to some of my own wounds: the things that make me angry, sad, hateful and ashamed.. some more memories returning.
Reflection on masturbation; the stories, the societal shame, the personal shame and curiosity to how I would have learned of this at such a young age.
Atleast it created a woman who knows what she wants here 😉
Relationships with people growing up. The co-dependency, the abandonment, the misunderstandings and the eyerolls that have been all to common.
When do you feel the most sexy?
For me, its when he grazes me as he walks by me
Forgiveness was big this season, inclusive of the man that assaulted me. This was big.
All this before the Gregorian New Year - within nine days I purged SO much, it was a wild holiday season. In all the good ways as we blossomed and stepped in and planned for our wedding.
deeper
everything.
Here was the list for the 2025 season, id say we’re doing pretty good with the goals, trusting in the medicine of each New cycle.
a deeper spiritual practice
more nature
more play and joy
deeper connection and community
deeper love and passion
physical, deeper movement
deeper alignment and trust- being me without limitations, trusting the heart and chasing the dreams
stability - no more worries about money, what we share and offer aligns with the right people.
tame and attain (pulled from Animal Apothecary, a fave deck. Representing freedom, stamina, unbridled passions and primal urges.
“The art of self-healing and transformation requires courage and for you to go beyond the comfort zones of fear that your body created to protect itself”
Deep focus on my heart through the winter season, on an energetic and physical level, truly releasing tension and built up shame, worry, mistrust +++
Feeling so much gratitude for everything that is transpiring. Wowowowow.
Little you is so fucking proud.
We have the power to make each moment sacred.
Severing ties to my ego relationship, giving grace to her and gently allowing her to step aside.
People only love you as deeply as they love themselves.
Healing is connecting with your inner strength- elder butterfly.
We are choosing to live a life of magic - to begin truly making space for what it is that we want.
The Heroine’s journey, making change despite the depths of sadness.
The deep money wounds, the idea that there is never enough seeping deep in my cells through generations. Put Zacks and mine together, whew… a whirlwind and abundance all in the same.
What is your brilliance?
Building capacity to receive.
Feeling my feet and truly grounding into this deeper reality.
Making love to life.
Orgasm to release.
Never being shown how to give love, let alone receive it. Feelings deep in my sacral, my hips.
Poor eating habits coming up, more protection.
Keeping them interested.
Shutting down parts of self so I don’t get hurt again.
Old roots dying with compassion and love.
Notes of love to our past selves.
Money as energy. Inspiration of what is possibile for me, trusting that it is exactly as we need.
The magic of nothingness - being in the stillness, confirmation of all of the magic in the mundane that we have been leaning deeply into.
The dance between structure and flow.
How can I step into greater trust and surrender— moving through my expectations and honouring both my masculiune and feminine energies.
What is it that I need to receive.
A deeper connection to love and the life that we are building.
So much gratitude this season for some amazing people and connections.
To Zack, my rock and my safety through all of the things.
Katherine for being there all the way and hearing me when I spoke
To Liz and Jen for the moon circles this season, they were powerful
To Now and Zen for the most beautiful retreats, connection, relaxation and community.
To Elles for introducing me to deeply aligned women, the ones who are leading heart led business; I see you.
&of course to Right to Heal, where I was privilieged to be able to complete placement over the past two seasons.
