Fear [part two]

Fear keeps us in a state of needing to control our surroundings.

Being constantly let down because the fact of the matter is that you cannot control anything/ anybody but yourself. This has been a big one for me to swallow, something that I continue to work on; in my relationships, my work environment, life.

As mentioned previously, keeping our nervous system in a constant state of stress.

I was somebody who needed to control everything. The cleanliness of a home, the order. Ask anybody that worked in the homes that I used to. They used to play tricks on me by moving picture frames, little did either of us know that this sense of control was fear based.

I grew up in a family that is very patriarchal based; follow the script, act of service, keep your home in pristine shape and don’t let anything astray. So although I fought against at, and no longer live in that manner, it was, at one point portrayed in the way my homes were run.

I don’t live like this anymore, and am working real hard at releasing control over so many things. A process that has been anything but easy but something that has really changed my entire trajectory. ♥️♥️❤️